Dance Therapy, 2nd edition


This week’s dance therapy session. Asked worst and best parts of the week to my Field mates. Did a gestural dance bit for each one. I read the words out loud before each one so my audience would know what was what. I ran out of time and didn’t finish the last 4 good moments of the week. A few repeats because of politics. Best: Womxn’s march. Worst: Trump inauguration. One person was sick this week. I replayed that by lying on the ground for a longish time. They found their worst moments humorous in my retelling. I’m thinking next week finding a way to make it easier to read. How can I keep the text off the floor and handy?

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Live Painting at Morning Yoga Dance Party



Did this in about 3 hours. I started with an orange and yellow base with movement lines I did at home. I painted on the color, listening to cool dance music. Improvisational painting. At first I was going through the pattern of creating circular modulating rainbows and then I started a different situation at the corner. Added some sparkle pecan (which reads as brown) and a black border. When doing this I was surprised (for some reason) that warm yellow and blue makes a muddy green. I’m glad I brought my different colors of paint, haha.

When I stepped back and looked at the painting, I thought it was intriguing. I didn’t hate it but I wasn’t transported to a good place right away. It gave me pause. It was darker than my usual work. I like it now. It goes well in my dark bedroom.

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The Field, Dance Therapy


I’m doing another cohort of the Field (read: workshop where we perform and get feedback from each other). This time at Luna Dance Institute in Berkeley! Some of the group has changed. Some has stayed the same. It was great watching the others, some familiar pieces, some not.

For this run, I am working on a piece called “Dance Therapy.” In this group of seven, I asked everyone the worst thing that happened this week and the best thing that happened this week. I took notes on on a receipt roll and then laid it out on the ground and performed a gesture/dance movement for each thing.

Feedback: a couple of people thought it was too fast, one person thought it would be nice to know when it was their thing they contributed, one person said it was very literal, all of them expressed a gratitude for the experience, going through their week and selecting a moment, and also hearing from the group, it made the group feel closer to each other.

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Ep 5 and 6 of Art Destruction Art


Ep 5

I made a bigger art than usual to rip up on stage. I used pastel crayons on a rice paper. I talked a little about how it was a big week (the election happened that week) and how it was my first autumn in Oakland.

Ep 6

I made a big art in September and decided it was time to destroy it. I used Crayola Brush Pens to create the work.

To see these episodes, find me on Facebook!

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Episode 4: The Label of Artist


still from “trailer” (Left), still from Episode 4 (right)

Short form: I did a short live video where I am letting my facebook followers know that I am going to do a live video later on the escalator at Millbrae BART station (LEFT). I did a freestyle monologue about the idea of calling myself an “artist” (RIGHT) while destroying this work (BELOW). I went to each audience member and held a flashlight to the piece, let them hold it, and asked them about what they thought of the piece. I spoke some of their words as I ripped it and deposited the shards into a plastic cup filled with water.


“Transparent Edge of Peace”

Feedback freeform

walking through the audience, as if you’re talking to yourself, what does the audience see? meta awareness of levels, inclusion of words, felt included, what is art? humility and questions ~~ the dark and the wider staging, resonated ~~ stool, flashlight, facebook, sense of intimacy– performer or just me– and mystery~~ walking through audience, my heart was touched more, got to see and touch the art, more personal, naming colors, wondering about the video, felt satisfied by the light out, what is beauty, what is work, learning the big themes behind what is art, ~~ ephemeral, nothing is recognizable, a screen world hidden, witnessing you’re someone being an artist, you made something of the process, miniatur-ism creates a sense of theatricality.

Comments on the Facebook Video (Anonymized)

~At first, it was really painful to watch you tearing up your art. Now, I’m kinda into it. I like how you blow open expectations of what art is or isn’t supposed to be.
~Wut in tarnation
~Very cool Video!


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Ep 2 and 3 of #artdestructionart

The Field (workshop/community series) hosted by SAFEhouse Arts – 1 Grove St

The Teaser Test

My first live facebook video. I have tried using live video streaming in the past but I didn’t know about creating personal hotspots on my iphone. I think that helped. I was motivated to do one by my new project #artdestructionart. I was talking a bit about social media in my first episode of this project that I thought it would be more connected (in more ways than one) to try out Facebook’s Live feature. I tested out the liveness by doing a teaser where I said I would be doing another live video later and showed some of my materials (thick sharpie and notecards).


Stills from live facebook vid

The Field and Episode 2

Inspired by the feedback from the last episode, I talked about Seasons of the Artist. I made note cards and ripped up a drawing called “Rainbow practice” made on May 4.

Feedback from The Field workshop goers (in note-took form)

live facebook video
what does Live art mean?
What is Live art

Seasons of the Artist
      rainbow bright colors

sadness about the art torn up
       Thank you for joining me in this


Sense of being Live for two audiences
online Live ness

“Season of the Artist” kept me curious
unique framing of the cycle of creating art
implying a natural process
“Down to Earth”
the artist “vulnerable”
details were overwhelming
the pacing did not leave pause for pondering


“a dollar tree frame encased in glass”
how do we want to keep things
juxtaposition of exquisite and mundane

saying goodbye to facebook brings teh awareness of the second audiencce

more context to the moment of creating the work at the dime of destroying

shift of focus between work audience and audence 2
what might happen?
laughing or sobbing


What did I miss?
As a person who wasn’t here.
When does the performance begin?

Bordered on funny
playfulness vs. serious


gist of it: material is emotional distance
vocal tone was consistent

Facebook / split audience
     crates distance

ripping up low affect
    not reading an effect

sense of conversational
   life and views


Stills from ep 2, #artdestructionart, Seasons of the Artist

For Next Time

As written in my notebook after the performance:

  • write text backward
  • create poetry as an epigraph?
  • create trailer?
  • what content?
  • describe context of creation
  • clear vase to drop “shards” in?
  • connect emotionally?
  • how to draw it out?
  • title “Birth and Death”?
  • get/make lil card holder?
  • create parts with corresponding cards so those tuning in later can tune in
  • merch? sell some tees?
  • have the thing I’m going to destroy next week to show at the end of time?

The Teaser, About to Ride the BART

I thought it was a fun time of being interrupted by the announcer in Oakland. I like these teasers because it’s good I think to warn peeps in advance when a “live art” thing is about to happen.


Stills from Teaser for ep 3

Ep 3, The Ritual

I lit a candle, wore a white shirt. I wrote the title/hashtag backwards so it would read proper on  my frontward facing camera. I also wrote the name of the piece backwards “rising ocho” is what it read because I’m not good at proofreading backwards (original title, “rising echo”) but I went with it.

I  had an audience member hold the piece while I talked about it. I asked for and wrote down words on folded notecards, asking for alternative titles to the piece: bubbles, ripple, undersea, blood cells, stitching, and I also wrote #artdestructionart. Then, I asked for audience participation: circle me and whatever word of the folded notecard is facing you, read that word.

I tore the piece, played to the camera and then burned some “shards” while the others chanted and circled around me and the table.

For Next Time

  • organize table with painter’s tape so that we can have more words at once
  • what do I  have to say about a piece on its deathbed? Celebration? defeat? context of creation?
  • Narrate freeflow style, flow of consciousness?


dizziness from walking around, different vocalizations, loss of creativity, loss of innocence, capitalism/what has value, the creative act of coming up with names before the destruction of the art

layered experimental, burning smell, process of making the piece, artistic impulse, “art destruction art” became more art

the group activity aspect was satisfying, periods of time to stop circling and observe, made me think of Burning Man, center of atom, harmonious sound score, burning, ritual dedication, sacred, purpose, feeding the ethers and the mystery.

I was jealous of the phone. I want to know what you’re saying. You’re making something for others. Art vs Process. Who are these experiences for. Instructional feeling like a cooking show, but felt personal. not here’s the process, but here’s a process. Felt Personal.

having witnessed vs being participant, blurring the lines of audience and participant, feelings of time cycle, season, ritual, facebook and a sense of time.


Stills from Ep 3


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Free Write: Lost and Found

On Sept 8, part of the Dancing with the So Called Dead festival, I went to a workshop put on by ::: curious ::: at CIIS. The freewrites (2) were about 5 minutes each. One was inspired by the word “lost” and one “found.” The facilitators had us underline the phrases that stood out to us as inspirational or interesting and we spoke aloud these phrases at will in a kind of group sharing poetry recital. (separate, lost phrases and found phrases were not mixed).

From my notebook:

LOST a notebook lost in the back of an uber by a Finnish travler, a freelance lefthanded writer who writes about cities the mission district, muralled Clarion Alley. He will fill out his name and address at the front of his notebook in front of the store by the enamel pins and Dwell magazines.

We are at Faye’s coffee where illustrations grace the walls and decorate the free coffee stamp cards that are filled out using the honor system and then put back in a drawer not unlike the dewey decimal card systems of old.

I lost a notebook or a few. Lost or very well placed for premature archival. Will they visit me again?

FOUND I found a dollar on the ground while waiting for Cassidy to fix his bike. I later bought a Peach mate tea with my debit card. I still have the dollar in my coin purse. It wasn’t dirty or anything but it’s just a dollar.

I pay San Francisco rent so finding a dollar is almost like not finding a dollar. I find that humorous.

I find lots of things humorous, like the mirror on the sidewalk that was cracked. I took a photo and put it on instagram and captioned it with a music video and an emoji.


I would go on to instagram the mirror a few more times as it scattered.


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